It's a tricky topic because you know, slippery slopes and depression and all that stuff - that's what it is about sometimes. But if it remains within the bounds of, "I'd rather drink alone/home than with complete strangers because it sounds like a terrible idea", maybe we can drop the sordidness of it. IDK even as I'm typing this I feel like I'm trying too hard to defend something even though I can't decide if it needs to be defended or not, haha.

I'm still in Barcelona - I was in Madrid before that, so I guess I'm mad at Barcelona for taking my friends away, or something.

(It is SO GOOD and I keep thinking back about ita)