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Title: The Call
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't profit
Characters: Sam, Ben
Warnings: background main character death, suicidal thoughts (but no actions), depression
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1082
Spoilers: general spoilers through half of S6
Summary: Dean goes in his sleep, and Sam has to go on as best he can.
Beta Thanks!: lavinialavender read this over but final proofing was mine. Be warned!
Author notes: This is a timestamp for Hell Shall Not Wash Us Away. You can probably read it by itself, but I wouldn’t recommend it. Can you say freakin’ depressing…

( A week after Dean died, Sam called Ben... )

Title: Words in the Dark
Disclaimer: I neither own nor profit from SPN (or Merlin. This ‘verse is clearly some kind of hybrid, like a coydog).
Characters: Sam, Dean, John
Warnings: positively portrayed religion?
Rating: PG (and this only because I tend to round up)
Word count: 1482
Spoilers: none: preseries AU
Summary: Sam reads every night in the chapel. It was Dean’s idea.
Author notes: This is my third in a medieval AU series. It may not make much sense without reading Sir Dean vs the Griffin and Confessions first.
Yay Beta!: lavinialavender betad. And then I changed things and she hasn’t seen it since. This is happening more often lately. And there are more typoes. THIS INVERSE EQUATION JUST MAKES SENSE.

( Dean’s still proud—maybe just a little smug—that it was his idea... )

 Here, have MORE fic, courtesy of the Barcelona bus ride. 


Title: You Remember Being Dead
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart.
Characters: Samuel Campbell, mentions of everyone else
Warnings: Samuel is a jerk, but he has his reasons. But it does mean he doesn't have very much family solidarity.
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 450
Spoilers: through about the middle of S6
Summary: Samuel Campbell doesn't much like his grandsons, but then again, he's never met them.
Author notes: lavinialavender also read this one, but I think I'm posting it before any actual beta-ing took place.  Be warned! The idea that Samuel Campbell really never met the Winchesters when they weren't completely messed up has been in my head since we found out what Sam's problem was. Granddad Campbell is not a nice man, but, much like John Winchester, he does have justification for the jerkface things he does...

( You don’t know what’s harder to believe, that Mary married that pretty, clean-cut Winchester whelp or that he became a serious hunter after her death...And then you meet Sam. )

Title: Surcease From Pain
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it.
Characters: Sam, Dean, Lucifer, Death
Warnings: torture and sensory deprivation
Rating: PG-13/R
Word count: 1262
Spoilers: AU starting from S6.11: there is no Wall and this is not your canon Cage.
Summary: Sam is, in the end, just a little soul, and for him it's just blackness.
Beta Thanks: Yay lavinialavender ! (and whereupon for reading). But I refuse to give them credit for remaining grammar mistakes. Those are MINE.
Author notes: I wrote this for no greater reason than, when browsing the tags at ohsam , I got really sad that "touch starvation" had never been used (i wanted to read that fic!) so I wrote it  myself. If I keep not wanting to edit Freak Camp I may tackle "strangulation/hanging" next...
Random note: every time I think, say or write "this is not your canon Cage" I want there to be a canon cage match, SPN meets professional wrestling or something. And in THIS corner, your champion! Sammy-boy Winchester...

( Sam felt it when his body went. At first he was just grateful.  )

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Title: Sir Dean vs. the Griffin
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit)
Characters: Dean, Sam
Rating: G
Word count: 871
Spoilers: none
Author note #1: Friend and beta of amazing, lavinialavender, has done a fantastic job, as usual. All errors that remain snuck in there under my watch, like gremlins, man...
Author note #2: I originally wrote this for the prompt: "Dean v. some kind of big time old magic beast, a giant or a basilisk or a griffin or some such...Mirror: Oh, hey, he's actually a medieval knight" at:

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( By the sixth time Sir Dean Winchester, eldest son of Lord John of Lawrence, slams his sword through the monster’s skin, he starts to think that maybe he should have taken his smartass little brother’s advice... )

I am not always a careful, timely, detail-oriented or on-the-ball human being. lavinialavender can tell you that I get distracted, and the best way to actually get me to do something (say, read excellent fanfic) is to gently remind OVER AND OVER again. Yes, nagging. Works really well.

To that end, I write myself lists. Hopefully I can get through everything in this post that I had written down. Life-and-Fandom Update!

--HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! Yes, this is hideously late, but I have the excellent excuse that I was in Japan. Yes, there were Internets in Japan, but also excellent Real Life folk to interact with and NOODLES so many noodles. I’m not a huge fan of seaweed or red bean paste, but friends (and speaking English, OMG, yay!) are always wonderful.

--FREAK CAMP ROCKS! And the first three Chapters are available here and getting a REALY awesome response. Lavinia and I knew that this story rocked (no false modesty here, man, especially as it’s currently my favorite romancy novel of all time, and I’m WRITING it, which seems wrong on some level) but it has ROCKED OUR WORLD to have other people agree and squee and generally be happy about our SPN AU monster.

--Because it’s so awesome, Freak Camp gets TWO notes, but it has also been NOMINATED for best AU and best darkfic at wicked_awards . NOMINATED FOR AMAZING. I may die in delight. The only thing keeping me from death here is that if I go, Lavinia will probably die from the shock and sadness, and then Monster By Any Other Name will probably not get finished, and that would be hideously sad. Yay!

--Aaaaand, wrote another SPN fic in the Dee universe here at deewinchester . Though to say that I “wrote” it seems to imply that I cranked it out last night, when really it was hanging around in my “You’re almost done with this fic” pile, I added two paragraphs, sent it to Lavinia and am DONE. It’s good (though rather disturbingly hard) to write something that is not about Freak Camp.

--Though I have been writing original stuff! Like, today, Kev started getting more back story. Poor kid, I have a feeling that something horrible is going to happen by the end of this story I started scribbling today. Something more specifically horrible than the anticipated death of his mother and the realization that his father is a complete sociopath. Hmmm. Not sure what yet.

I’m currently in love with copperbadge ’s Trace story. I love his writing, loved the original story that this story is evolving out of (maybe kinda stole it and put it in Word documents on my computer. Maybe.). Love it.

Hmmm, this post got longer than expected, and spawned itself, and generally did crazy things. But that’s okay. I do tend to ramble. And that list is done! Off to another…

I have not been sleeping, and it is lavinialavender's fault. We have started a massive SPN darkfic, heavily influenced by a mutually read romance novel. We have spent about eight scene/stories messing the hell out of Sam's head (he's growing up in a monster concentration camp) and are now trying to put him back together again. It keeps me up to 3:30 a.m., even when I have church to get up for at 6:30 (ended up being surprisingly functional: woot! coffee).

We thought about dividing the thing (tentatively called Freak Camp) according to characters, but I wanted to get in Sam's head, a LOT, but I'm better at the snarky Dean dialogue, so we abandoned that plan and are both just writing what we want. Lavinia gets the sex scenes by default, and I get the plot (I think this is because I want monsters, and monsters, drat them, require plot).

Part One was a Dream. It's planned, it's functional, it is going to give Sam and Dean issues that they aren't going to be able to fight their way out of easily without becoming stock fools (which we will not allow them to do). Part Two is being a thorny mess. We write things, and then they don't fit either with the plot or the emotional arc. I've moved a nightmare scenes six times, and I'm not convinced I deleted it every time. So if Sam keep having the same nightmare, it's my fault.

I'm very excited. As long as we can keep a similar enthusiasm going for a while longer, this may come together fairly quickly. Or at least the beginning could. Woot!

So I said to my brain: “Brain! What would we like to write today?” And then I gave it a list.

1. Deanna fic—lavinialavender and I have a comm—deewinchester —devoted to our interpretation of girl!Dean, and how societal pressures could shape “Deanna” to basically become “Dean.” We rely heavily on the fact that women die a lot in SPN, and Dean(na) would do ANYTHING to protect their little brother.

2. S5 fic—because S6 starts tomorrow, and I’m not sure I want those influences cluttering up what I think now.

3. ORIGINAL fic—because Mirai needs to give her brother some hurt/comfort, Kev has to deal with a dragon, and Haylan has to survive his mother one more day.

4. Apo-verse works-in-progress

So what do I end up doing?

I end up writing a completely new Apo-verse fic. Because (my brain promised me) “It will be short!”

Thousand+ words later, I think we have to have a talk about our differing definitions of short (and while I’m at it, maybe I should talk to someone about this habit I have of talking to myself).

Hope you enjoy. I think this is just a sign that the Apo-verse is alive and well and breeding plot bunnies in my skull

Title: One More for the Road
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit) Though the AU twist is mine. If you want to jump in this crazy place with me, please do! There's plenty of room, the water's fine, and I enjoy company.
Characters: Sam, John, Dean, deer!Impala
Warnings: This AU is a strange place, built on a joke and spiraling out of control. If you can't handle a post-Apocalyptic world with mutant African deer, and a gleeful disregard for the stodgy rules of logic, turn back now!
Rating: PG
Word count: 1525
Spoilers: None, pre-series
Summary: Just another town. Just another fight. Until it’s not.
Author notes #1: This AU (I call it the Apo-verse) started as a joke, but somehow it got out of hand. The Impala is currently an African deer and the world in general is post-Apocalyptic (nukes, biological weapons, the end of broadcast television). Other stories in this world, posted and in the works include: “Live by the Sword”, "Two Men and an Impala" (currently a WIP), and "Dean vs. the Sex Traders" (also currently a WIP). Honestly, I’ve always wanted to write a “Sam leaves for Standford” fic, but never really thought I had anything valid to add. I’m still not sure I have anything to add, but it’s the Apo-verse, so anything goes.
Author note #2: Again, lavinialavender has excellently beta’d this fic.

( Sam knows the rhythm of their fights like he knows shotgun recoil and the sway of the Impala... )

Title: His Father's Son
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit)
Characters: Sam, Dean, John, Yellow-Eyed Demon
Warnings: major character death, suicide 
Rating: R
Word count: 364
Spoilers: S1 finale, alternate ending
Summary: AU of "Devil's Trap." Dean dies inside the cabin, and that changes everything.
Author notes: So much in the Supernatural universe hangs on the delicate thread of true family linking the Winchester men. This fic explores the choices that might have been made when part of that web is de-anchored. lavinialavender  is my beta, though she didn't read it directly before I posted it, so there may be errors, and they are all mine.
Author note #2: I have fallen in love with parenthetical, italicized flashbacks. Absolute love. I may have written a story recently that didn't have them, but I don't remember it. And I fully admit that part of this love is they wouldn't have let me do that in undergrad. I'm pretty sure the profs would have given me the look, you know?

( His Father's Son )