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Title: The Call
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't profit
Characters: Sam, Ben
Warnings: background main character death, suicidal thoughts (but no actions), depression
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1082
Spoilers: general spoilers through half of S6
Summary: Dean goes in his sleep, and Sam has to go on as best he can.
Beta Thanks!:

lavinialavender read this over but final proofing was mine. Be warned!
Author notes: This is a timestamp for Hell Shall Not Wash Us Away. You can probably read it by itself, but I wouldn’t recommend it. Can you say freakin’ depressing…

( A week after Dean died, Sam called Ben... )

Title: Hell Shall Not Wash Us Away
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys. But I sure like messing them up…
Characters: Sam, Dean, Castiel
Rating: PG-13 (for language)
Word count: ~2750
Beta Thanks:Yay

lavinialavender! Hugs her. She valiantly slaughtered hordes of grammar fail. What remains is still my fault.
Summary: The problem with permanent damage to the soul is that death does nothing to fix it. The first thing Sam sees when he gets to Heaven is Dean. The second is the wall...
Author Note #1: Now with TIMESTAMP: The Call.
Author Note #2: This is only my second comment!meme fic, and way too fun.

de_nugis ’s lovely, complete prompt (containing fic spoilers) is here at:

( Sam has been mildly afraid of death since they both visited Heaven... )

Title: Words in the Dark
Disclaimer: I neither own nor profit from SPN (or Merlin. This ‘verse is clearly some kind of hybrid, like a coydog).
Characters: Sam, Dean, John
Warnings: positively portrayed religion?
Rating: PG (and this only because I tend to round up)
Word count: 1482
Spoilers: none: preseries AU
Summary: Sam reads every night in the chapel. It was Dean’s idea.
Author notes: This is my third in a medieval AU series. It may not make much sense without reading Sir Dean vs the Griffin and Confessions first.
Yay Beta!:

lavinialavender betad. And then I changed things and she hasn’t seen it since. This is happening more often lately. And there are more typoes. THIS INVERSE EQUATION JUST MAKES SENSE.

( Dean’s still proud—maybe just a little smug—that it was his idea... )

Title: A Man, a Rope, a Tree
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart.
Characters/Pairing: Sam, Dean
Warnings: hanging, strangulation, mention of OC mutilation
Rating: R
Word count: 1159
Spoilers: set S6ish? No particular spoilers
Summary: Sam remembers a lot, actually. He just doesn’t remember how he got on the tree.
Author notes: I actually have a lot to say, but that's why there are footnotes at the end. :) Yay, thank you to

lavinialavender for beta-ing! And then I went and changed things. All mistakes remain my own.

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( Sam isn’t sure how he got here. Nor is he quite sure why he’s still alive... )

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( Footnotes! )

Title: Surcease From Pain
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it.
Characters: Sam, Dean, Lucifer, Death
Warnings: torture and sensory deprivation
Rating: PG-13/R
Word count: 1262
Spoilers: AU starting from S6.11: there is no Wall and this is not your canon Cage.
Summary: Sam is, in the end, just a little soul, and for him it's just blackness.
Beta Thanks: Yay

lavinialavender ! (and

whereupon for reading). But I refuse to give them credit for remaining grammar mistakes. Those are MINE.
Author notes: I wrote this for no greater reason than, when browsing the tags at

ohsam , I got really sad that "touch starvation" had never been used (i wanted to read that fic!) so I wrote it myself. If I keep not wanting to edit Freak Camp I may tackle "strangulation/hanging" next...
Random note: every time I think, say or write "this is not your canon Cage" I want there to be a canon cage match, SPN meets professional wrestling or something. And in THIS corner, your champion! Sammy-boy Winchester...

( Sam felt it when his body went. At first he was just grateful. )

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Title: In His Sleevies
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it.
Characters/Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: PG
Word count: 1225
Spoilers: preseries
Summary: “If you make another ‘humerus’ joke, so help me I’m going to break your jaw."
Author notes: Fic is based on a bit of dream from this morning. In my waking hours, I've got a mild incest squick, but apparently my subconscious thinks Sam and Dean are sweet...which they are...garh. Thanks always to excellent beta, fandom obsession buddy and best friend

lavinialavender. This fic isn't so much FOR her as it's ALL HER FAULT.

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( Dean refuses to take the blame for Sam’s broken arm... )

Current Mood: confused

Title: We All Sleep Alone
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it.
Characters/Pairings: Sam/Jess, Dean/ofc
Warnings: loneliness
Rating: PG (for language)
Word count: 1432
Spoilers: none, Stanford Era
Beta:

lavinialavender read it, but then life ate her, so I did the final grammar check. Remaining fail is mine.
Summary: You’ve got to be strong when you’re out on your own, but sooner or later we all sleep alone.
Author notes #2: Usually, I SWEAR, I don’t combine Cher and Supernatural in my head. The styles just don’t fit. But every time I hear this song I see the boys missing each other. Possibly it’s the closet Wincest fan in my that says they are always alone if they’re not with each other. This was eventually going to be an Apo-verse fic (for some reason, ANYTHING goes in the Apo-verse, possibly it’s the deer!Impala) and a version may be in that verse some day, but this just came out gen.
Author Note #2: Even as I post this, I don't think I quite nailed what I wanted to say, but I was sick of having it floating around, almost done, in Gdocs. Fic is fic, yeah?

( Sooner or later we all sleep alone... )

Title: Confessions
AU Universe: Medieval
Disclaimer: I neither own nor profit off of SPN (or Merlin, to which this is clearly some kind of hybrid, like one of a coydogs or a cama)
Characters: Sam, Dean, John
Warnings: dreferences to child abuse/family fighting
Rating: PG
Word count: 1846
Spoilers: preseries
Summary: Sam and Dean keep each other's secrets.
Author notes: This whole medieval world spawned out of "Sir Dean vs. the Griffin". There's at least one more story in this 'verse rattling in my head.

lavinialavender read this story over, but then I changed things, so, as far as typos and forgotten verbs, proceed at own risk...

( “Bless me, Father, for I have sinned!” Dean crows. “God’s earhairs, Sam, you will not believe how I have sinned!" )

Title: Sir Dean vs. the Griffin
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit)
Characters: Dean, Sam
Rating: G
Word count: 871
Spoilers: none
Author note #1: Friend and beta of amazing,

lavinialavender, has done a fantastic job, as usual. All errors that remain snuck in there under my watch, like gremlins, man...
Author note #2: I originally wrote this for the prompt: "Dean v. some kind of big time old magic beast, a giant or a basilisk or a griffin or some such...Mirror: Oh, hey, he's actually a medieval knight" at:

Looking Glass: Dean Winchester (and his reflection) a comment!meme [Click on the image to go to the meme.] Banner courtesy of

animotus

( By the sixth time Sir Dean Winchester, eldest son of Lord John of Lawrence, slams his sword through the monster’s skin, he starts to think that maybe he should have taken his smartass little brother’s advice... )

So I said to my brain: “Brain! What would we like to write today?” And then I gave it a list.

1. Deanna fic—

lavinialavender and I have a comm—

deewinchester —devoted to our interpretation of girl!Dean, and how societal pressures could shape “Deanna” to basically become “Dean.” We rely heavily on the fact that women die a lot in SPN, and Dean(na) would do ANYTHING to protect their little brother.

2. S5 fic—because S6 starts tomorrow, and I’m not sure I want those influences cluttering up what I think now.

3. ORIGINAL fic—because Mirai needs to give her brother some hurt/comfort, Kev has to deal with a dragon, and Haylan has to survive his mother one more day.

4. Apo-verse works-in-progress

So what do I end up doing?

I end up writing a completely new Apo-verse fic. Because (my brain promised me) “It will be short!”

Thousand+ words later, I think we have to have a talk about our differing definitions of short (and while I’m at it, maybe I should talk to someone about this habit I have of talking to myself).

Hope you enjoy. I think this is just a sign that the Apo-verse is alive and well and breeding plot bunnies in my skull

Title: One More for the Road
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit) Though the AU twist is mine. If you want to jump in this crazy place with me, please do! There's plenty of room, the water's fine, and I enjoy company.
Characters: Sam, John, Dean, deer!Impala
Warnings: This AU is a strange place, built on a joke and spiraling out of control. If you can't handle a post-Apocalyptic world with mutant African deer, and a gleeful disregard for the stodgy rules of logic, turn back now!
Rating: PG
Word count: 1525
Spoilers: None, pre-series
Summary: Just another town. Just another fight. Until it’s not.
Author notes #1: This AU (I call it the Apo-verse) started as a joke, but somehow it got out of hand. The Impala is currently an African deer and the world in general is post-Apocalyptic (nukes, biological weapons, the end of broadcast television). Other stories in this world, posted and in the works include: “Live by the Sword”, "Two Men and an Impala" (currently a WIP), and "Dean vs. the Sex Traders" (also currently a WIP). Honestly, I’ve always wanted to write a “Sam leaves for Standford” fic, but never really thought I had anything valid to add. I’m still not sure I have anything to add, but it’s the Apo-verse, so anything goes.
Author note #2: Again,

lavinialavender has excellently beta’d this fic.

( Sam knows the rhythm of their fights like he knows shotgun recoil and the sway of the Impala... )

Title: Live by the Sword
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit) Though the AU twist is mine. If you want to jump in this crazy place with me, please do! There's plenty of room, the water's fine, and I enjoy company.
Characters: Sam, Dean, deer!Impala
Warnings: This AU is a strange place, built on a joke and spiraling out of control. If you can't handle a post-Apocalyptic world with mutant African deer, and a gleeful disregard for the stodgy rules of logic, turn back now!
Rating: PG
Word count: 2375
Spoilers: Ummm, if S1 existed, this would take place between episodes 1 and 4. Somewhere.
Summary: After leaving Stanford, Sam and Dean find their rhythm again as brothers and family after an attack in the mountains.
Author notes #1: This AU (I'm calling it the Apo-verse) started as a joke when I realize that an Impala, in addition to being one of the awesomest cars ever, is also an African deer. With my deep devotion to puns, I quickly set about creating a world that would justify Sam and Dean riding around on one. The result is an early, completely man-made Apocalypse (nukes, biological weapons, the end of television) which allows Sam and Dean to hunt everything they did originally and also have inherited a giant, mutant deer from their father. Somehow this got out of hand. The original story "Two Men and an Impala" (currently a WIP) is pure, funny crack, and the second "Dean vs. the Sex Traders" (also currently a WIP) started out funny, and got dark somewhere along the way. Then because I wanted to see Sam with a sword, this fic appeared and got finished first. It takes place first, chronologically, and I'm kind of in love.
Author note #2: Other Apo-verse stories are: "One More For the Road" (preseries)
Author note #2: Sometimes the beta process fixes a couple wrong words and I'm good to go. This time

lavinialavender made me so much better, the original draft will hopefully never see the light of day. You should thank her, profusely.

( When heads need to come off, Dean’s an ax man... )

Title: His Father's Son
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit)
Characters: Sam, Dean, John, Yellow-Eyed Demon
Warnings: major character death, suicide
Rating: R
Word count: 364
Spoilers: S1 finale, alternate ending
Summary: AU of "Devil's Trap." Dean dies inside the cabin, and that changes everything.
Author notes: So much in the Supernatural universe hangs on the delicate thread of true family linking the Winchester men. This fic explores the choices that might have been made when part of that web is de-anchored.

lavinialavender is my beta, though she didn't read it directly before I posted it, so there may be errors, and they are all mine.
Author note #2: I have fallen in love with parenthetical, italicized flashbacks. Absolute love. I may have written a story recently that didn't have them, but I don't remember it. And I fully admit that part of this love is they wouldn't have let me do that in undergrad. I'm pretty sure the profs would have given me the look, you know?

( His Father's Son )

But somehow along the way, those grand plans degenerated into downloading the S5 finale. And then watching the S5 finale. And then getting angry and weepy all over again.

And so I'm back here posting my episode reactions, which contain lots of swearing (comparatively), vague but important SPOILERS for I Am the Messenger by Markus Zusak, and, obviously SPOILERS for the Supernatural season 5 finale "Swan Song". These were originally shared with

lavinialavender . And when i say, originally, I mean, about five minutes ago.
( Why I Hate Kripke Sometimes )

And, to make me feel better about life, I am also posting the last of my completely finished but unposted (by me) Supernatural fics. Again,

lavinialavender has already posted this one for me (and beta'd it) , and I have stolen her coding. It's been slightly altered from what it was before, because, hey, I just watched the episode, and noticed a few details that I didn't quite get right. Writing this made me feel better about the episode the first time, and I really like it as well. Ah, Sam, you're so fun to write...

Title: Blood Rush
Disclaimer: I own nothing of SPN.
Characters: Sam
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1,509
Warnings: drug addiction rumination
Spoilers: through 5x22
Summary: Sam drinks demon blood in "Swan Song"

( Blood Rush= )

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Side note, I learned tonight that I can chug a liter of water without stomach damage. This is what happens when I am alone in the house for just under a week: I begin to experiment.

Current Mood: aggravated

Yup, I'm out of order already. But these two things are short, and thus, I desire to post them NOW so I can tackle posting larger things with more italics (alas! the italics). Both are SPN genfic.

The first is a haiku. The title (which contains all the SPOILER info you should need) is "What Dean Said to the Demon (In a Hypothetical Situation, Season 3)."

( What Dean Said to the Demon )

The next was inspired by

de_nugis 's prompt ("Sam's puppy-dog eyes turn out to be his next power") at

ratherastory 's crack-fic meme. I've always rather thought that Sam's puppy-dog eyes were a power that he just never noticed, and thankfully did not use for evil. This fic probably won't be posted at the meme because it's not cheery.

Title: Puppy-Dog Eyes
Characters: just Sam :(
Rating: PG-13 for violence and language
Word count:150
Spoilers: takes place between S3 and S4
Summary: Sam asks nicely.
Author notes: for once

lavinialavender has not intensively edited this piece,but hopefully, because it is so short, I will be able to manage it myself.

( Puppy-Dog Eyes )

lavinialavender and I were just going through lists of SPN fic we want to write, and it made me both saddened by how far my thoughts outreach my accomplishments, and ambitious to change that.